Hello Again

me at 290 lbs

Me at 315 bs.

320 lbs

With my mom on a cruise in 2012 - 295 lbs

Today is November 12, 2012, Veterans Day. I just found this blog that I started two years ago. I went through some of my post and I am glad to say I have made some changes but I haven't reached all my goals. My current weight is 285.3 lbs. I just turned 40 on October 30, 2012. I will reach my goals this year. I will make me a priority and my goals will be reached.

As for my hair, I am still not sure what I want to do with it. Do I really want to be a naturalista? Or is the creamy crack calling my name? I will make some big decisions about all that soon! Right now it is fun discovering me and what I really like. I am single and I would love to find someone to make this journey with. I guess one day. Right now finding me is the most important thing to me.

I have to start again!

I know I need to get my game up and continue to put my thoughts to words to paper/computer. Blogging seems to be easier for me because I always have a computer with me. I let someone close to me draw me away from path of rediscovering me but that won't happen again. I can't...I can't afford to take my focus on rediscovering who I am or waiting for someone to love me like I WANT to be loved. I rather for them to jump over a fence to love me not be on the fence about loving me!!!!!

moving forward

Ok..So I am catching up right now.

It is not much but...LOST 3lbs. I set my mind to it and I did it. After I wrote my last blog about my goals, I have put that list everywhere!! I am not doing this to obtain something like gifts. The only thing I want is good health and a healthy lifestyle but the incentives have been a good reminder.


(I need to buy a new scale. The date reset and I can't get it back)

I am excited for the new year.

Happy new year!!! OK I AM SOOOO LATE

I am not one to make New Year's resolutions. I normally look back on my life around my birthday. (10/31) Well this year I have realized that I am a tad stagnate. I haven't move forward like I wanted too. To no fault of anyone else but mine. I continued to put others first in my life. I haven't realized that I should be first in all I do. I want to take the time to set some goals for myself. These goal will be my motivation and what i look to as I go into the new year. I won't put myself on a time frame but I won't continue to wait for change. Change has to happen because I want it too. I have to move because I want to move. I want a move rewarding life and today I will make sure to make that happen.

I have a new vision of what I want for me. I can see different things for myself and what I want to strive to do.

HABAKKUK 2:2
"And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make [it] plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it."

Why must we have a vision?
Where [there is] no vision, the people perish. (Proverbs 29:18, KJV)
"Perish" as translated in other versions:
a) Unrestrained - New American Standard
b) Run wild - Living Bible
c) Cast off restraints - New King James

The implication is clear. We may therefore amplify it as where there is no vision; the people become unrestrained, run wild, and perish.

My Goals/Vision:
NEW GOALS FOR 2011...
I am making a new start. I began on my birthday (10/31/2010) but now I have to become more focus on the healthier me that is waiting inside.
The time is now...
10 lbs lost - New pedometer 10/15/10
20 lbs lost -
30 lbs lost -
40 lbs lost -
50 lbs lost -
60 lbs lost -
70 lbs lost -
80 lbs lost -
90 lbs lost -
100 lbs lost -

My Program:
Philippians 4:13 states "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me"


Weight as of 11/26/10 - Day after Thanksgiving
Highest Weight: 345
Starting Weight on Spark 330lbs.

I am a woman who wants to be healthier. I want to learn to love me first. I am going to do this. In 2011, I will do this for me. I believe I can make this work for me...I need positive support and help. I won't be scared to ask for it.

My rewards will be my goals until I reach my goal weight.
Rewards:
SW-313lbs 12/7/10
3lbs= New headphones for ipod
5lbs= New CD
10lbs=New CD

(Out of the 300lb Club)

15lbs= SP Shirt
20 lbs= Charm for Bracelet
25 lbs= Facial
30 lbs= Tattoo
35lbs= New Workout clothes
40lbs= Charm for Bracelet
45lbs= Book
50lbs=MAC Makeover
60lbs=Charm for bracelet
70lbs= Jeans
80lbs= Charm for bracelet
90lbs= Tattoo
100lbs = Shopping spree
110lbs=
120lbs=
130lbs=
140lbs= A TRIP SOMEWHERE!!!


GOAL MET ON: 00/00/00

Ok...Goal number one

I have already embarrassed myself with those hair pictures so I guess Now I have to share the weight portion of this journey. My highest weight has been 345 lbs. I have done things over the last two years to get down from 345 but I have been stuck around my current weight. So I need to jump start this program. As my mom says don't talk about it ; be about it!

My first goal is to try to be under 300lbs. by 2/1/2011.

As of last week  (11/26/2010), my weight is...

 

11/26/10 - day after Thanksgiving

To Loc or Sister Locs...that is the question

So Friday, after Thanksgiving, I took out my last quick-weave. Well, my only quick-weave. For the last two years. I have been getting weaves or braids. Or when in doubt throw on a wig. My hair came out in 2008 because of medication and relaxer and color choices that were horribly wrong.

 

Quick-weave

Quick -weave after a hot flash so I cut it!

My hair after horror was removed. I had conditioner everywhere!

I do have a curl pattern...somewhere!

So, I cut my hair down to where the damage was and just started braiding or weaving. I stayed away from glue even though I was the weave queen and I could glue in a whole head weave by myself. Every time I would take out the weave or the braids, I would deep condition and trim my ends, blow dry my hair and go to my next appointment. I let some of my colleagues talk me into a less-expensive weave option called an invisible part quick-weave. I called myself researching on youtube and I saw people doing the quick-weaves themselves so I figured I would be OK. The young lady who did my hair told me it was too long to gel down and too natural to wrap. so they cornrowed me hair to the back and put a stocking cap on. They used some gro-protectant to saw called "protect" my hair from the glue. She was nice and all but I was so nervous about it that I couldn't sit still. I got my hair done on November 2, 2010. She told me that people keep the weaves in for at least two months. Needless to say, I was surprised that I kept in as long as I did. Everyday I was paranoid about hair underneath this dag on cap.

Hair blow-dried out

Now, that I have taken that foolishness out...the glue, the stocking cap, the pulling hair, the horror...I am trying to decide what to get done to my hair. I want to do some research about natural hair and locs. I do like the versatility natural hair gives. From the free flowing afro, two strand twist, braids and the occasional blow out but I love the styling options with Sister locs too. Locs are an option only because I may not have the patience for the re-tightening for sister locs. Also Sister locs are an investment. Average install starting price is $500. (I have a big head). So right now I am weighing out my options and I will take the time to see what is best for me. I always wonder why people choice what they do for their hair. I guess this time reflecting will help me choose.

I just wanted to make sure this posts to me blog.